I'm losing my mind.
I wake from a terrible nightmare
And I can do nothing but lie in the dark.
Or write poems about it to express my loneliness
And inner turmoil.
No matter how close I am with my friends from a far
They cannot help me.
No one here can help me either.
I am looked at like I am crazy;
As I cry over losing someone's heart...
As I cry over my communication skills slowly dying...
As I cry over the fact that I am a prisoner in my mind.
A slave to my logic as well as my emotions.
I can't stop these pathetic tears even as I write this.
Because no one is going to notice it until later.
And by then my defenses will be back up.
No one is here to console me like I console them.
I am left to face the result of these painful nightmares alone.
Just like when I was younger...
I am once again falling into the depths of my insanity
With not one soul to fall with me.